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i decided against telling the psychiatrist about the alledged hypermania, im doing well. not delusional as far as im aware...heh. anyway im staying at my friends at the moment and everything is going pretty well! i met the new psychiatrist who *fingers crossed* seems nice and also reasonable. he seemed to understand that it is important for me to be able to draw for my sanity as well as for making a living in future.

the decision was that we will up the paroxetine to 40mg and then to 60mg! hooray! im also thinking of trying lithium again since last time was so completely screwed up by the hormones from the mirena coil that maybe i didnt give it a fair trial. i have to say that i prefer the idea of lithium because it doesnt affect people without problems as opposed to seroquel which completely wrecks EVERYBODY. it kind of makes me think that it might be a better option long term aside from the risk of thyroid problems but it would control my moods rather than controlling *me* if that makes sense? ugh so complicated.

anyway im being signed up for psychological something or other which sounded quite good when he said it.

my house is nearly finished so im looking forward to FINALLY having somewhere of my own

me and the boyfriend (who have sorted out pretty much all of our problems!) are thinking of moving to spain when my precarious mental health is under control. his aspergers means that he can get a job at pretty much any of the financial/computing firms with no problems (he has excellent references from various things he's done in the past) so we'll probably do that and i'll get get some design jobs i guess.

its all going pretty well really - just thought i'd update anyway! x

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