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so for the last... since I posted I think
I have the Seroquel up to 600 mg-that I should take cut instead of 50 mg
Everything was great and in fact was great up to one of my best friends who kindly noted today that in the always Hypermanic.Alle there evidence - the constant and excessive coffee drink to do the fact that I smoked 25 g of tobacco, the reorganization of the whole House, the drawing and writing creative stuff, include the constant and review the fact I 5 hours were on average a day, a night to sleep and remarkably well on it.
I saw that King of the Hill, where Kahn is manic and Yes in the pretty much there.
What's funny is that I feel honest.
If it wasn't for the fact that I trust absolutely I would think make wa just to ruin this my luck.
Finally I have an appointment with a psychiatrist on Tuesday
I don't know whether or not sagen.Es could be that you about nothing is worrisome
and then I will come back my chance to paroxetine upped missed and the crushing is misery.
difficult.
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One little troubled teen has been self-harming for two years and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She is seeing a counsellor regularly
mindmap wants the life he had back and is looking for some answers
AnnC1 has suffered from depression for many years and felt she was an outsider as a child
BaronessTom is a student with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and suffers from episodes of debilitating depression
Farout dreamer is in a constant search for his identity after a traumatic childhood
Norrms has Early Onset Alzheimer's and while he's scared, he's also happy in the knowledge that he's raised a loving family that will stand by his side
Andrew grice considers himself a 'veteran' of bipolar disorder and gives lectures about the condition at universities
Orange Squeeky has bipolar disorder and has lost faith in mental health professionals
milkybar has had episodes of clinical depression throughout her life and mental illness runs in her family
Fairy_Wings has battled with depression since she started self-harming in her teens. She is now 27
eleni valentine has bipolar disorder and bulimia and is coming to the realisation that her mental health condition is a 'life long problem' that she can't ignore
Kurse30 has been diagnosed with schizophrenia after experiencing changes in his mood and regrets experimenting with drugs in the past
jamieevans has had depression and anxiety since she was a teenager and lives with her anxiety-prone mother
OnceMoreFromTheTop aka Phoebe is learning to cope with the OCD she once saw as a curse
Barmycarmy aka Carmel is on a waiting list for CBT, but is unmedicated and not coping well
Lilruthc has had symptoms of depression for 5 years and now gets anxious and stressed easily
Meg1 wants to track her progress as she comes to understand what having borderline personality disorder means for her
Will-R became depressed 5 years ago after his mum died and has recently started having anxiety attacks
JustEliza says she's 'spent most of my life trying to solve the puzzle that is me'
ToadofToadHall is a mental health nurse who was in denial about 'the big D'
Piggles aka Emma still struggles to come to terms with being diagnosed with depression. She's eager to chat
Scarlett1984 describes herself as a 'smiling depressive'
sea1 wants help and advice on how to stop her depression disrupting her life
dontcare finds CBT helps her depression, but she still has many low days
Optimist at Heart thought she'd conquered the 'demon' of depression, but now finds it has crept back
Everybody lies feels like she can't allow herself to be happy
GaryP is 16, suffers from depression and recently got over agoraphobia
Storm&Stress is worried she may relapse after an up and down Christmas and New Year
DarkClouds has recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
Soulmamma is a compulsive list maker and sets herself 3 'happy tasks' per day
Davidsmurthwaite writes about technology and mental health
Booa26 has been suffering on and off with depression, anxiety and eating disorders since she was 14
BigJen is a former practice nurse who has depression, MS and diabetes and 'the best hubby in the world'
DanielS is a web editor and music & film lover who has had clinical depression since his teens
Laurey is 22 and was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder at Christmas 2008
More information:
Nothing in this blog should be taken as medical advice and the opinions are personal and not those of the NHS. If you have any concerns about your health you should contact your GP or use our medical advice now section.
One little troubled teen has been self-harming for two years and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She is seeing a counsellor regularly
mindmap wants the life he had back and is looking for some answers
AnnC1 has suffered from depression for many years and felt she was an outsider as a child
BaronessTom is a student with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and suffers from episodes of debilitating depression
Farout dreamer is in a constant search for his identity after a traumatic childhood
Norrms has Early Onset Alzheimer's and while he's scared, he's also happy in the knowledge that he's raised a loving family that will stand by his side
Andrew grice considers himself a 'veteran' of bipolar disorder and gives lectures about the condition at universities
Orange Squeeky has bipolar disorder and has lost faith in mental health professionals
milkybar has had episodes of clinical depression throughout her life and mental illness runs in her family
Fairy_Wings has battled with depression since she started self-harming in her teens. She is now 27
eleni valentine has bipolar disorder and bulimia and is coming to the realisation that her mental health condition is a 'life long problem' that she can't ignore
Kurse30 has been diagnosed with schizophrenia after experiencing changes in his mood and regrets experimenting with drugs in the past
jamieevans has had depression and anxiety since she was a teenager and lives with her anxiety-prone mother
OnceMoreFromTheTop aka Phoebe is learning to cope with the OCD she once saw as a curse
Barmycarmy aka Carmel is on a waiting list for CBT, but is unmedicated and not coping well
Lilruthc has had symptoms of depression for 5 years and now gets anxious and stressed easily
Meg1 wants to track her progress as she comes to understand what having borderline personality disorder means for her
Will-R became depressed 5 years ago after his mum died and has recently started having anxiety attacks
JustEliza says she's 'spent most of my life trying to solve the puzzle that is me'
ToadofToadHall is a mental health nurse who was in denial about 'the big D'
Piggles aka Emma still struggles to come to terms with being diagnosed with depression. She's eager to chat
Scarlett1984 describes herself as a 'smiling depressive'
sea1 wants help and advice on how to stop her depression disrupting her life
dontcare finds CBT helps her depression, but she still has many low days
Optimist at Heart thought she'd conquered the 'demon' of depression, but now finds it has crept back
Everybody lies feels like she can't allow herself to be happy
GaryP is 16, suffers from depression and recently got over agoraphobia
Storm&Stress is worried she may relapse after an up and down Christmas and New Year
DarkClouds has recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
Soulmamma is a compulsive list maker and sets herself 3 'happy tasks' per day
Davidsmurthwaite writes about technology and mental health
Booa26 has been suffering on and off with depression, anxiety and eating disorders since she was 14
BigJen is a former practice nurse who has depression, MS and diabetes and 'the best hubby in the world'
DanielS is a web editor and music & film lover who has had clinical depression since his teens
Laurey is 22 and was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder at Christmas 2008
More information:
Nothing in this blog should be taken as medical advice and the opinions are personal and not those of the NHS. If you have any concerns about your health you should contact your GP or use our medical advice now section.
One little troubled teen has been self-harming for two years and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She is seeing a counsellor regularly
mindmap wants the life he had back and is looking for some answers
AnnC1 has suffered from depression for many years and felt she was an outsider as a child
BaronessTom is a student with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and suffers from episodes of debilitating depression
Farout dreamer is in a constant search for his identity after a traumatic childhood
Norrms has Early Onset Alzheimer's and while he's scared, he's also happy in the knowledge that he's raised a loving family that will stand by his side
Andrew grice considers himself a 'veteran' of bipolar disorder and gives lectures about the condition at universities
Orange Squeeky has bipolar disorder and has lost faith in mental health professionals
milkybar has had episodes of clinical depression throughout her life and mental illness runs in her family
Fairy_Wings has battled with depression since she started self-harming in her teens. She is now 27
eleni valentine has bipolar disorder and bulimia and is coming to the realisation that her mental health condition is a 'life long problem' that she can't ignore
Kurse30 has been diagnosed with schizophrenia after experiencing changes in his mood and regrets experimenting with drugs in the past
jamieevans has had depression and anxiety since she was a teenager and lives with her anxiety-prone mother
OnceMoreFromTheTop aka Phoebe is learning to cope with the OCD she once saw as a curse
Barmycarmy aka Carmel is on a waiting list for CBT, but is unmedicated and not coping well
Lilruthc has had symptoms of depression for 5 years and now gets anxious and stressed easily
Meg1 wants to track her progress as she comes to understand what having borderline personality disorder means for her
Will-R became depressed 5 years ago after his mum died and has recently started having anxiety attacks
JustEliza says she's 'spent most of my life trying to solve the puzzle that is me'
ToadofToadHall is a mental health nurse who was in denial about 'the big D'
Piggles aka Emma still struggles to come to terms with being diagnosed with depression. She's eager to chat
Scarlett1984 describes herself as a 'smiling depressive'
sea1 wants help and advice on how to stop her depression disrupting her life
dontcare finds CBT helps her depression, but she still has many low days
Optimist at Heart thought she'd conquered the 'demon' of depression, but now finds it has crept back
Everybody lies feels like she can't allow herself to be happy
GaryP is 16, suffers from depression and recently got over agoraphobia
Storm&Stress is worried she may relapse after an up and down Christmas and New Year
DarkClouds has recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
Soulmamma is a compulsive list maker and sets herself 3 'happy tasks' per day
Davidsmurthwaite writes about technology and mental health
Booa26 has been suffering on and off with depression, anxiety and eating disorders since she was 14
BigJen is a former practice nurse who has depression, MS and diabetes and 'the best hubby in the world'
DanielS is a web editor and music & film lover who has had clinical depression since his teens
Laurey is 22 and was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder at Christmas 2008
More information:
Nothing in this blog should be taken as medical advice and the opinions are personal and not those of the NHS. If you have any concerns about your health you should contact your GP or use our medical advice now section.
It's hard to believe that the most loved food on the planet could actually be healthy for you. Did you know that the average American consumes about 12 pounds of chocolate a year. How could something so fattening and loaded with sugar actually be healthy for you?
History of Chocolate
Let's start with a little history lesson to better inform you on how there could actually be some benefits of dark chocolate. Chocolate has a long history, dating back to around 600 AD when the Mayan Indians established cocoa plantations in the Yucatan region of Mexico. The Mayans and later the Aztecs created a chocolate drink called 'xocoatl' or 'chocoatl' which originated from cocoa beans taken from cocoa trees. This 'chocoatl' drink consisted of chocolate flavored with vanilla and spices and had the consistency of honey. Chocolate was only consumed in liquid form at this time.
The Dutching Process
When the Europeans were introduced to chocolate it was still in its purest form. This changed in the early 1800s when a Dutchman by the name of Coenrad Jahannes van Houten discovered that if you added alkali-potash to the beans before they were roasted it would neutralize the acid or bitter taste of the natural cocoa.
While there were some obvious benefits of the "dutching" process, the biggest problem was that because of that process the most important benefits of dark chocolate were being removed.
Chocolate in the Raw
One of the most important nutrients being eliminated during the "dutching" process was flavonoids. Flavonoids are antioxidants found in raw fruits and vegetables that help to slow down the oxidation or aging process in our bodies. Therefore, the most healthy chocolate is raw or unalkalized.
What About the Fat?
Cocoa butter, like its name suggests, is the natural fat of the cocoa bean. For years it was believed that cocoa butter was a harmful ingredient found in commercial chocolate products. New research now shows that cocoa butter is actually a "neutral" fat, meaning that it does not increase blood-cholesterol levels.
Worried About Caffeine
Would you believe that natural chocolate has little or no caffeine. However, more and more manufactures are adding caffeine to their products, so check the label before buying.
Bitter is Best
To receive the benefits of dark chocolate, you must find it in its purest form. The typical processing of the cocoa bean kills at least half of the antioxidants found in the pure cocoa bean. Try to consume products that contain at least 70% pure cocoa powder.
Drink of the Gods
The Aztec Indians placed great importance on chocolate, believing that chocolate was consumed by the Gods in paradise and that the cocoa seed was brought to earth as a special blessing for the people by the God of the Air. The last Aztec emperor, Montezuma, reportedly drank only 'chocoatl'. He was supposed to have drunk up to 50 goblets of chocolate a day.
Fact or Fiction
More and more research is being done on the health benefits of raw unprocessed cocoa. Thousands of medical studies can be found by going to www.googlescholar.com and searching for dark chocolate studies. The science is there ready to be discovered and what a great discovery it is. Doctors will soon be prescribing chocolate for all our ailments
It was our anniversary on Friday. No, our wedding anniversary but moved two years since we on the Isle of Wight. It certainly doesn't seem two years ago, that we went through all the stress our last House put on the market at a time when house prices were beginning to bottom slide and we were in this recession. Amazing second people considered our Suffolk property in a range (for what we hoped to get and not what it was in the market - smart eh?) set but then there was the stress of having to the cost of dealing with issues survey discovered the buyer - wet in some walls to meet, the plastering and Woodworm, required, what? Beetle, where? Apparently, the South American traveler one found indeed a hole on a bar on the top floor and a few in the planks in one of the bedrooms.Which costs £ 300 have treated, the day before we due to the full and plaster still damp war.Also with all were our worldly in a storage group unity and sleeping on a mattress in a room with naked planks and the air with insecticide, home since 15 years we had shared no longer felt still damp warm and reassuring and we wanted to launch our new life on the sea.
The next day after even more stress - load the car, take the moving van to the storage unit drive around the infamous M25 and we catch the Red Funnel ferries finally as "Overners" we ended up had moved to live here, and were no longer "Grockles" - the Islanders Word for leisure. Of course, had we then the wait to complete and to pick up the keys from the real estate agent. This seemed a age take and after a coule hours sat in the car at the Sandown (I cried as usual) about the deep looking, how the Sun from the clouds appeared. As it did so it was a rainbow - I love Rainbow and see as a symbol of hope.I was sure that our new bungalow at the end was and sure enough the cell phone rang and we had completed and could have the keys to find the moves the bungalow abholen.Wir van already been for half an hour. We were home, our new home in a location that we loved.
All this was 2 years ago, and although we have no regrets about moving here and I prefer my depression would have MS here than anywhere else suffer much happen.I have actually managed to get a job even if I am often verlacht and it made it clear that my nursing skills now means nothing and is advised, not someone about health issues not a recognized part of my work, so that I can (although you have patients know clinical summary to have notes, the part of my role is!) I have a posh title, although clinical governance administrator (audit Secretary for short) I really wanted in nursing as those of you who follow me here and Twitter / Facebook wissen.Ich not think I ever get over the fact that influenced my hands and fingers run multiple sclerosis to an extent that meant I could the tasks required for my previous job as a practice nurse.MS can directly cause that depression damage affecting parts of the brain Emotionen.Dies makes it a little more bearable, like I have to blame something, but it doesn't help when I was in the depths of despair and feeling worthless and useless as a nurse and a woman.
It is terrorism and murder you call sports difficult, management strategies for the childlessness and Grandchildlessness - think, although I have my ongoing struggle to raise awareness among of the Government and the media request restoration of wildlife.I see my visiting foxes and Badgers as my children and just you is better than any antidepressants have given me the doctors.
Shortly after my last blog post I signed up for the Psywell study am by NHS Entscheidungen.Ich find this useful as my own GP has me at any point than sending for CBT and I've often wondered if it help würde.Es is no study specifically for people with depression, but if you are, it could you helfen.Es cCBT principle of WYTIWYF - works on the mind gym "what you think, what you feel is" If you think you are but clinically depressed and haven't seen your doctor yet, by all means do the study, but it is recommended that you have a healthcare professional to see.
I'm actually much feel better, am enjoyed some quality "me time" and decided that although I am not 100% satisfied in my current job, it at least shows that I want to work, and I more probably something with more hands am nursing when I can show that was ready to take something in a medical setting and, to my knowledge up-to-date in my own time finden.Ich'm look again suitable for nursing jobs but Shhhhhh tell my current employer!
Perhaps is what I need an another Rainbow...
Jen - X - X-.
”Our exit is a short story about a woman under Alzheimer's leiden.Es reflects the personal experience of a dementia suffering, rather than by the keeper.
Here's a quick excerpt:
"I remember on a decline, and a pain in my hip…""But I'm confused." The woman myself familiar appear but was here and you did something to my arm so it made sense to say something. "Where am I?""I asked." Now you are sure you're in the hospital. "Had a crash, but you are getting better." A Sturz.Das is terrible."Ohh, home now I go?""You are still not good enough to discuss now jogging are Joan?"No, I think nicht.Ich indeed feel in some kind of pain, but what you to my arm it has some way to infect gemacht.Oh what leave for a peaceful and delicious Gefühl.Ich freedom from pain and suffering wash over me and my thoughts.Go to the blog for the full story: you see only what I sometimes see
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Our exit of Yowics: http://yowics.tumblr.com/
”Chocolate, the product of cocoa beans, is a popular ingredient of many kinds of confections such as chocolate bars, candy, ice cream, cookies, cakes, pies, chocolate mousse, and other desserts.
The chocolate without milk is termed as "dark chocolate," which is an additive. Dark Chocolate is sometimes also called "plain chocolate." According to the US Government, the "sweet chocolates" are required to have a 15% concentration of cocoa and the European rules specify a minimum of 35% cocoa, but dark chocolate contains a lot more cocoa than other forms of chocolate. The standard chocolate manufacturing destroys up to half of the flavoniods present in cocoa. However some chocolate companies have now learned to make dark chocolate that keeps up to 95% of its flavoniods.
Dark Chocolate is said to be the creation of the Mesoamerican civilization. A large number of studies have revealed the benefits of dark choc. The team of Mary Engler, PhD, RN, of the University of California, San Francisco, and colleagues revealed that eating a small, 1.6-ounce bar every day is good for you rather very good for you.
According to Mary's Team, flavoniods keep cholesterol from gathering in blood vessels, reduce the risk of blood clots, and slow down the immune responses that lead to clogged arteries. Engler says that dark chocs contains more flavoniods than any other foods, such as green tea, black tea, red wine, and blueberries.
The report of the study led by Dirk Taubert, MD, PhD at the University of Cologne, Germany, revealed that dark chocs is effective in controlling the high blood pressure. The Dr. Dirk's team found that dark chocolate helps lowering high blood pressure.
Mauro serafini PhD from National Institute for food and Nutrition research in Rome says in her report that "our findings indicate that milk may interfere with the absorption of antioxidants from chocolate and may therefore negate the a potential health benefits that can be derived from eating moderate amounts of dark chocs."
There are many evidences that reveal the cocoa affects treating heart diseases. Cocoa wards off some of the factors, which are responsible for heart attack. Flavanols in cocoa can reduce the risk of heart diseases. The researchers of the Johns Hopkins University have proved that eating dark chocolate at daily basis makes the blood thin and reduces developing blood clots. Some studies have proved that the white chocolate is not good for health benefits as compared to the dark chocolate.
Plant Phenols-cocoa phenols make the low blood pressure. European chocolates are much richer on cocoa phenols. The flavor compound found in this type of chocs are also used in red wine. Dark chocolate also contains antioxidants that reduce free radicals, which are the sources of numerous other diseases. Mexican healers use chocolate to treat insect bites and it contains high quantity of cocoa and less quantity of sugar so it's allowed on Montaignac diet.
Paul writes for the Chocolate world site and for the Sicily investment site
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One little troubled teen has been self-harming for two years and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She is seeing a counsellor regularly
mindmap wants the life he had back and is looking for some answers
AnnC1 has suffered from depression for many years and felt she was an outsider as a child
BaronessTom is a student with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and suffers from episodes of debilitating depression
Farout dreamer is in a constant search for his identity after a traumatic childhood
Norrms has Early Onset Alzheimer's and while he's scared, he's also happy in the knowledge that he's raised a loving family that will stand by his side
Andrew grice considers himself a 'veteran' of bipolar disorder and gives lectures about the condition at universities
Orange Squeeky has bipolar disorder and has lost faith in mental health professionals
milkybar has had episodes of clinical depression throughout her life and mental illness runs in her family
Fairy_Wings has battled with depression since she started self-harming in her teens. She is now 27
eleni valentine has bipolar disorder and bulimia and is coming to the realisation that her mental health condition is a 'life long problem' that she can't ignore
Kurse30 has been diagnosed with schizophrenia after experiencing changes in his mood and regrets experimenting with drugs in the past
jamieevans has had depression and anxiety since she was a teenager and lives with her anxiety-prone mother
OnceMoreFromTheTop aka Phoebe is learning to cope with the OCD she once saw as a curse
Barmycarmy aka Carmel is on a waiting list for CBT, but is unmedicated and not coping well
Lilruthc has had symptoms of depression for 5 years and now gets anxious and stressed easily
Meg1 wants to track her progress as she comes to understand what having borderline personality disorder means for her
Will-R became depressed 5 years ago after his mum died and has recently started having anxiety attacks
JustEliza says she's 'spent most of my life trying to solve the puzzle that is me'
ToadofToadHall is a mental health nurse who was in denial about 'the big D'
Piggles aka Emma still struggles to come to terms with being diagnosed with depression. She's eager to chat
Scarlett1984 describes herself as a 'smiling depressive'
sea1 wants help and advice on how to stop her depression disrupting her life
dontcare finds CBT helps her depression, but she still has many low days
Optimist at Heart thought she'd conquered the 'demon' of depression, but now finds it has crept back
Everybody lies feels like she can't allow herself to be happy
GaryP is 16, suffers from depression and recently got over agoraphobia
Storm&Stress is worried she may relapse after an up and down Christmas and New Year
DarkClouds has recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
Soulmamma is a compulsive list maker and sets herself 3 'happy tasks' per day
Davidsmurthwaite writes about technology and mental health
Booa26 has been suffering on and off with depression, anxiety and eating disorders since she was 14
BigJen is a former practice nurse who has depression, MS and diabetes and 'the best hubby in the world'
DanielS is a web editor and music & film lover who has had clinical depression since his teens
Laurey is 22 and was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder at Christmas 2008
More information:
Nothing in this blog should be taken as medical advice and the opinions are personal and not those of the NHS. If you have any concerns about your health you should contact your GP or use our medical advice now section.
They say getting started is the hardest part. Well I hope that's true because I really want this to work. I can't write much as I'm in work, but I wanted to get this blog going and say a big HELLO to you all. My name is Candycan. I am going to take you onwards with me on my journey through life as a person living with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) and my treatment in clinical psychology therapy (If you'd like to come, that is!).
To give you a brief intro, I have been diagnosed with DID now for a year or so, although I am beginning to understand that this has been with me a long time. As we only have the one head, it's difficult to have an insight into what is normal for a person and what is not. Normal for me has always involved having constant chattering from parts of myself going on in my mind; always having more than one opinion on a topic; always feeling like I'm one person one day, another the next. I knew I was not normal in my actions, as I could see such huge variations in my moods/opinions/habits on a day to day basis but I didn't understand why. I thought I had a memory problem. I do have a memory problem, but now I am seeing that this is because I have various personalities who take control at different times and dont always communicate well with each other. OK, that sounds totally crazy, but hopefully you will understand that in fact it's quite a simple and clever way of dealing with some of lifes problems.
I have various, what the pros call 'comorbidities' including depression, eating disorders, problems with self harm, sleeping problems. Sometimes these make life very difficult. Most of the time I feel like I am just about managing to get myself to work and back every day without falling apart completely. Oh the joys!
It has its upsides though. I will introduce you to some of my 'parts'. One is a lovely, happy child who gets great enjoyment out of many little things. You will enjoy reading about them.
For now, I better get on and earn my wage.
If you have any initial comments or questions that'd be great to give me something to get started with next time.
Candycan
”This is my first blog.
Well where to start?
Perhaps a bit more about me.
I am 15 years old and I have a self Harmer for the last 2 years. I've also recently diagnosed was depressive with bipolarity Finally I know what I bin.Ein manic.
Here's my story so far...
It started after a very rough patch with my parents, I started when I clicked 7 war...und finally at News Year Eve 2007 / 08.
The new year began with my beloved parents makes me a few meters from you, after you again about nothing a fight. Bloody typical.
I was all alone in a strange place to hate my life and my parents hate stranded. Of course, the problems with my parents were not the only fire, life at school had become unbearable. I knew that something happen, had to change my life, I could not go on living like this.
So when I came back to school I found out, via Self'bank the idea sound from a friend and damage well how it could work. So I started it, I can now remember the first cut.Especially in the bones on my right wrist.It hurt like hell, but I found out I loved it. Unfortunately started then searches.
My cut was secretly then and gradually got worse and worse, finally just out of control. Then began only to make even better things, the voice in my head then in conversation with me, then me, that one day, the day brings my breakdown call day, the day that I completely you reserves verloren.stellen, a young girl sitting on the floor in the school shouting and screaming fear out of my life.Teachers who run wines had friends nobody a clue what was wrong.I had to tell you. Then everyone found out March 2008 was. Of course after that day, everyone was careful to me, but not reduce the cutting or my feelings besser.Mein teachers and parents decided that something should be done to help me.
So I started then advice.
I have had advice for the past two years, to try and all my emotional problems.I had it from March 2008 to June 2009 and ended only after my fourteenth birthday as and then both myself and my advisers I felt okay, well okay enough, was to stand on its own two feet.
Thosetwo were highs and deep years constantly more cut and less cut more fights and less fighting.Things were great sometimes, but sometimes terrible.Unfortunately subsided but the problem I went to advice for primarily nie.Ich was infact constantly cut.
On the up side of this last year I had one of the best years that alright I per hatte.Gute friends, family and best friend in the world to happiness an amazing year.
Unfortunately I ruined everything.My friends all extremely close to my friend at the time was (can call it E.G) and blunt I cheated the on him, not once twice but thrice. I know what you think about what a total slag!And I know war.Wer I know what the hell was I thinking I know even jetzt.Nach still the first time he found I cheated, everything was relatively okay.After the second time he found out I had betrayed him again, I lost him as my friend, I lost my "best friend" (can call your a.b.) and attempting suicide in the toilets can say as you happy Halloween.After the third time I lost the last few friends I narrow as it my had involved bestest friend of all (can call your business districts) and well it outright, completely lost my mind.
Make to lose two of the most important people in your life, then realized your mistakes vary but then something that you done have if you were a bad person back comes and everything somehow had managed you ruins, to store the other incident.
It was one of the worst times in my life and I am still trying to get over that.It was occurred only a month ago when the third incident itself and I still cry about it.
See all together all still friends and have one thing in common, a huge raging hatred for me.
Some news.
This last month I have with started last year in the school year 11, hard to close friends and a terrible reputation.I've started consulting again after the suicide attempt and my cut.But this time not just about my cut and alleged friends treat my moods, but I especially think me and others around me.I do it because I'm afraid hurt people, I again love you really not not verdient.Ich'm a bad person, and I need to change.
The next few months will be so hard, and I've already so viel.Ich have only strongly to keep, but then most people here would probably understand how easy that is but just how hard it is to actually do.
I am currently struggling, and I feel more alone than ever zuvor.Niemand understands and it doesnt weh.Ich feel numb.Deaf, inside and außen.schneiden sets me free of charge.
I cut two sides to mir.Eine page who wants and to stop another page that desperate will.Eigentlich I suspect two sides alles.Ich thats just my Manic Depression.Es kills mich.Ich struggles again with me and my Gefühle.Ich don't know what more tun.Ich miss my old Counsellor, I miss the old days where everything was better and easier.
I bedauere.Ich verletzt.Ich Miss so I learned viel.Aber.
The last 2-3 I constantly have depressed weeks but then I had an episode of mania, not complete this last weekend but only hypo Manie.Leider was today I go up and down very quickly and well at the moment I am only deaf, feel nichts.Ich feel down, and I know that today evening will be awful.
Sorry, that is my first post so long, I wanted to get my story completely, said.
And I think that's all for today.
Love you all.
Peace to you all.
Keep smiling auf.Auch if only fake one like mine.<3>
”I feel if I mean little for the biggest day in the Alzheimer's calendar, here is the Maili got and the poem that was read.
Going to send the order to keep service leaves me and show the family, my family, best wishes and the Norrms xxxxxxxxxx
Hello of Normms and family;
I hope this finds you well.
I poem, silent voices hat.Ihr just got back from our Evensong service at Gloucester cathedral, was read out!
I have a copy of the service for you if you want me to you - is the poem it gedruckt.Es seemed to go well.
If you, you order of the service to send me your address please.
Thank you so much for that allow us to use it.
This is the poem
SILENT
VOICE OF THE
Silent voices screaming everywhere
Silent, still continues through the air
Eyes that look, but don't see
Beating heart for me
Forever want back my life,
No longer wandernde this lonely track;
To talk to laugh, be understood;
Their lives as you should
One year is gone next year
As the setting of the Sun
The dementia demon comes along
Take your favorite song
I have all this yet to come
Free stare, body deaf,
But the end and at home;
Place your hand around my heart
Feel it within the beat me
Look into my eyes and you'll see
Happy scenes without a tear,
And hear my soft voice
Best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
If you happen to be a "chocoholic," there is some good news for you: some chocolate is not only not as unhealthy as previously thought, but many doctors now actually encourage the public to consume it. One particular type of chocolate can be beneficial to your gums, eyes, heart, arteries and even your entire immune system. It can also help lower cholesterol levels and balance both blood pressure and blood sugar. However, before you run out to buy candy bars in bulk, know that not just any kind of chocolate will provide such benefits.
Dark chocolate, created from natural cocoa beans, has been recommended for consumption even up to three times a day. This is because the cocoa bean is the food with the highest levels of antioxidants ever, which protect the body from oxidative stress involved with aging. Other foods, such as red wine, tea, and select few fruits and vegetables also offer similar health benefits, but cocoa still tops them all when it comes to the sheer number of antioxidants. These antioxidant compounds are called flavanols, which presumably supply dark chocolate its health benefits.
Ironically, flavanols actually taste very bitter, so many companies that make candy bars take out most of the flavanols to make the chocolate taste better. This obviously strips the chocolate of most of its health benefits. Furthermore, there is no way of knowing which candy bar is healthiest, as companies do not indicate how many flavanols are left in the final product. This is why buying dark chocolate candy bars simply to get the health effects may not work.
Also keep in mind that milk chocolate does not render the same health perks. The darker the chocolate, the more flavonoids containing flavanols there are, meaning that milk chocolate offers fewer health benefits than dark chocolate. Clearly this indicates that white chocolate offers even fewer; in fact, it contains no flavonoids.
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One little troubled teen has been self-harming for two years and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She is seeing a counsellor regularly
mindmap wants the life he had back and is looking for some answers
AnnC1 has suffered from depression for many years and felt she was an outsider as a child
BaronessTom is a student with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and suffers from episodes of debilitating depression
Farout dreamer is in a constant search for his identity after a traumatic childhood
Norrms has Early Onset Alzheimer's and while he's scared, he's also happy in the knowledge that he's raised a loving family that will stand by his side
Andrew grice considers himself a 'veteran' of bipolar disorder and gives lectures about the condition at universities
Orange Squeeky has bipolar disorder and has lost faith in mental health professionals
milkybar has had episodes of clinical depression throughout her life and mental illness runs in her family
Fairy_Wings has battled with depression since she started self-harming in her teens. She is now 27
eleni valentine has bipolar disorder and bulimia and is coming to the realisation that her mental health condition is a 'life long problem' that she can't ignore
Kurse30 has been diagnosed with schizophrenia after experiencing changes in his mood and regrets experimenting with drugs in the past
jamieevans has had depression and anxiety since she was a teenager and lives with her anxiety-prone mother
OnceMoreFromTheTop aka Phoebe is learning to cope with the OCD she once saw as a curse
Barmycarmy aka Carmel is on a waiting list for CBT, but is unmedicated and not coping well
Lilruthc has had symptoms of depression for 5 years and now gets anxious and stressed easily
Meg1 wants to track her progress as she comes to understand what having borderline personality disorder means for her
Will-R became depressed 5 years ago after his mum died and has recently started having anxiety attacks
JustEliza says she's 'spent most of my life trying to solve the puzzle that is me'
ToadofToadHall is a mental health nurse who was in denial about 'the big D'
Piggles aka Emma still struggles to come to terms with being diagnosed with depression. She's eager to chat
Scarlett1984 describes herself as a 'smiling depressive'
sea1 wants help and advice on how to stop her depression disrupting her life
dontcare finds CBT helps her depression, but she still has many low days
Optimist at Heart thought she'd conquered the 'demon' of depression, but now finds it has crept back
Everybody lies feels like she can't allow herself to be happy
GaryP is 16, suffers from depression and recently got over agoraphobia
Storm&Stress is worried she may relapse after an up and down Christmas and New Year
DarkClouds has recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
Soulmamma is a compulsive list maker and sets herself 3 'happy tasks' per day
Davidsmurthwaite writes about technology and mental health
Booa26 has been suffering on and off with depression, anxiety and eating disorders since she was 14
BigJen is a former practice nurse who has depression, MS and diabetes and 'the best hubby in the world'
DanielS is a web editor and music & film lover who has had clinical depression since his teens
Laurey is 22 and was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder at Christmas 2008
More information:
Nothing in this blog should be taken as medical advice and the opinions are personal and not those of the NHS. If you have any concerns about your health you should contact your GP or use our medical advice now section.
Why is it that when we are young, the end of September is an age away from Christmas? Yet as we get older we think that at this time of year Christmas is just around the corner? Maybe I think too much?? LOL but my consultant did say to me “Use it or lose it” when he first diagnosed me two years ago. Such things go through my head a lot more these days and I do find myself thinking back to boyhood days.
Those days seemed much simpler then, harder? YES! But simple
If there is one thing to say about this awful disease is usually some of your best and earliest memories are usually the last to go. As you can imagine this throws up such a confusion of emotions as I like to think that I have many many happy memories of my life early and lately (what I can remember) the sheer thought of forgetting my darling wife and my family fills me with such dread some days that I actually shake with fear. I have always had this fear, even before my diagnosis that I will wake up one day, alone; all by myself and all my life has just been a dream.
Then only to be told two years ago that there is a strong possibility this is going to actually happen!! Most of my memories eaten away by this unforgiving disease of the brain until all I see are my boyhood memories, if I am lucky. All this drives me on to do as much as I can, whilst I can, for as long as I can as I quite flatly refuse to lie down to this illness or roll over.
Yesterday Elaine and me attended out Memory Cafe we volunteer at and I was asked to say a few words about my illness (me? a few words? Are you kidding me??LOL LOL) So trying to raise awareness I said that at one time the word “Cancer” was only whispered about or called the big “C” Then of course we had HIV or “Aids” which seemed to be only talked about in corners or not at all. Now both subjects are talked about openly and honestly. WHY??? Because we brought it to the forefront of people’s attention! We advertised the fact that it’s just an illness and not something to be scared of! We stood up to it and admitted more needed to be done to combat awful diseases like this.
Because of this, people listened, Government listened and the generosity of human beings came to the forefront! They stood side by side to be counted and made their donations which are needed and are so welcome to fund research and hopefully one day a cure. The result is what we have today. Millions of pounds being donated by the government for research and the words Cancer or HIV used as commonly as any other word.
So what of the word Dementia? Why, in this day and age is it still only whispered about? Why do Governments plough more money into one disease than another when they are all equally devastating? The answer is quite simple when you think about it! If it wasn’t for those wonderful people campaigning about the diseases mentioned and driving the message forward that more awareness needed to be raised then the general public would still be talking about Cancer and HIV in whispers!
Does the same not apply to the word DEMETIA?? Of course it does!! And by raising awareness as much as possible about DEMENTIA and all its problems can, and will, benefit Dementia sufferers now and for the future. So come on guys, it worked for other diseases and I hope and pray it will work for this disease in my lifetime and a cure will be found.
HELP RAISE AWARENESS.
As always, best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxx
”Dark chocolates is the best form of chocolate that is beneficial for health. If we consider the positive effects of eating chocolate, nothing can beat them. There are several reasons behind the global popularity of dark chocolate as nutrition supplement. Scientific research and health surveys clearly reflect the good effects of eating such chocolates on human body.
Although there are numerous benefits (medically proved) of eating cocoa rick chocolates. It's not possible to describe all of them here. However, some common and most important benefits of eating chocolates are described below.
Reduced Stress & Better Mood - Eating dark chocolates helps in releasing tension and improving our mood. Antioxidants present in dark chocolate keeps your body free of radicals/toxins, resulting in better feeling. Antioxidants also help in reducing stress and giving a better state of mind for our everyday working.
Instant Energy Source (Ideal for Kids) - Dark chocolates are calorie rich food therefore they are considered as an instant source of energy. Giving a fixed amount of these chocolates to your kid's everyday will provide them complete nutrition and help their body in proper growth.
Good for Circulatory/Cardiovascular System - Chocolates are also good for our circulatory system. By freeing up radicals from our blood stream, it helps in improving blood pressure. Cocoa chocolates are helpful for cardiovascular system. It helps in reducing cholesterol level in our body, thus keeping us away from heart related problems.
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i feel as if i did my little bit for the biggest day in the Alzheimers calendar, here is the maili got and the poem that was read out.
She is going to send me the order of service sheets to keep and show my family, best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxx
Hello Normms and family,
I hope this finds you well.
I've just got back from our Evensong service at Gloucester Cathedral. Your poem, Silent Voices, was read out!
I have a copy of the order of service for you if you'd like me to post it to you - the poem is printed in it. It seemed to go down well.
If you would like me to send you the order of service please send your address.
Thank you so much for allowing us to use it.
This is the poem
SILENT
VOICE`S
Silent voices shouting everywhere
Silent, yet still rising through the air,
Eyes that look but do not see,
Beating heart inside of me,
Forever wanting their life back,
No more wandering this lonely track,
To talk, to laugh, be understood,
To live their lives as they should,
One year there, next year gone,
Like the setting of the sun,
The Dementia Demon comes along,
Takes away your favourite song,
I have all this yet to come,
Vacant stare, body numb,
But to the end and from the start,
Place your hand around my heart,
Feel it beat inside of me,
Look in my eyes and you will see,
Happy scenes without a tear,
And my silent voice you will hear
Best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
And an uncertain
Future
Yesterday was spent with my two youngest grandson and my eleven-year-old granddaughter who is growing fast! Has on secondary school and more and more curious turned the conversation wanted to do in the future, their hopes and dreams from day to day moved during the day.We are a very close family and talk about these things comes easy, but tried to keep a smile on my face, as she speaks over the next years was hard tun.Sie asked about future Christmas and time is always in a teenager and hopefully always a veterinarian but it still your mind to change (how you quickly LOL reminded me)
As many know I am, not usually for words LOL Plug and above all, where my grandchildren are concerned, but I have to admit I was a little fighting yesterday with the emotional attachment that goes with it, it was a difficult time. Look in the eyes of expectation and hope for the future was absolutely wonderful to see and all my hopes and love will be invested in you.
But what is my future uncertainty and how do I keep up the façade? it is surely a tough one. As we leave you said yesterday I gave my granddaughter a special hug and considered what yet to come.How to answer your questions in the future?How can I say with confidence and honesty, I was born because his is you as I always been there for you? And as I lie to her when she says "me promise grandfather?"
As an Alzheimer's suffering, when I first told no one of the disease, but no one can prepare for this type of emotional Aufruhr.Es this gives no rules or regulations terrible disease apart from knowing about the outcome if to find a cure!No one says "Hey! I know what to do a book that tells you, and how to deal, things like this! Yes there are a few brochures, how to discuss difficult issues of children, but the reality is, if these questions his life change made and so emotionally you're never really ready for you."
My love for my family and children is undeniable and immortal and I always believe, it will completely but sometimes as it you no matter how very throws you trying to say it doesn't work and the empty and helplessness can feel fully consume you and throw you you about feelings and things that never inform people into a pit Verzweiflung.Dies are or talk about some of the lessons of life are the hardest to learn if you are an Alzheimer's sufferer.
I can, sometimes the "I will".to die, as I have such a wonderful life had and could have wished for a more loving and supportive family BewältigenIch much to "I have so much to do, yet" as I have so much to see and was so lucky how everyone through life, but what I bother having dealing, the fact that chances are so much done, I will not see my children dreams become reality and become a part of you, and I'll see the view of your eyes, like all of you do want in life.
Alzheimer's wants to take all this way from me, but I promise you I me not, if I HAVE ANYTHING TO WITH IT promised
"Where is there life there is always hope"
Best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxxx
One little troubled teen has been self-harming for two years and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She is seeing a counsellor regularly
mindmap wants the life he had back and is looking for some answers
AnnC1 has suffered from depression for many years and felt she was an outsider as a child
BaronessTom is a student with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and suffers from episodes of debilitating depression
Farout dreamer is in a constant search for his identity after a traumatic childhood
Norrms has Early Onset Alzheimer's and while he's scared, he's also happy in the knowledge that he's raised a loving family that will stand by his side
Andrew grice considers himself a 'veteran' of bipolar disorder and gives lectures about the condition at universities
Orange Squeeky has bipolar disorder and has lost faith in mental health professionals
milkybar has had episodes of clinical depression throughout her life and mental illness runs in her family
Fairy_Wings has battled with depression since she started self-harming in her teens. She is now 27
eleni valentine has bipolar disorder and bulimia and is coming to the realisation that her mental health condition is a 'life long problem' that she can't ignore
Kurse30 has been diagnosed with schizophrenia after experiencing changes in his mood and regrets experimenting with drugs in the past
jamieevans has had depression and anxiety since she was a teenager and lives with her anxiety-prone mother
OnceMoreFromTheTop aka Phoebe is learning to cope with the OCD she once saw as a curse
Barmycarmy aka Carmel is on a waiting list for CBT, but is unmedicated and not coping well
Lilruthc has had symptoms of depression for 5 years and now gets anxious and stressed easily
Meg1 wants to track her progress as she comes to understand what having borderline personality disorder means for her
Will-R became depressed 5 years ago after his mum died and has recently started having anxiety attacks
JustEliza says she's 'spent most of my life trying to solve the puzzle that is me'
ToadofToadHall is a mental health nurse who was in denial about 'the big D'
Piggles aka Emma still struggles to come to terms with being diagnosed with depression. She's eager to chat
Scarlett1984 describes herself as a 'smiling depressive'
sea1 wants help and advice on how to stop her depression disrupting her life
dontcare finds CBT helps her depression, but she still has many low days
Optimist at Heart thought she'd conquered the 'demon' of depression, but now finds it has crept back
Everybody lies feels like she can't allow herself to be happy
GaryP is 16, suffers from depression and recently got over agoraphobia
Storm&Stress is worried she may relapse after an up and down Christmas and New Year
DarkClouds has recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
Soulmamma is a compulsive list maker and sets herself 3 'happy tasks' per day
Davidsmurthwaite writes about technology and mental health
Booa26 has been suffering on and off with depression, anxiety and eating disorders since she was 14
BigJen is a former practice nurse who has depression, MS and diabetes and 'the best hubby in the world'
DanielS is a web editor and music & film lover who has had clinical depression since his teens
Laurey is 22 and was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder at Christmas 2008
More information:
Nothing in this blog should be taken as medical advice and the opinions are personal and not those of the NHS. If you have any concerns about your health you should contact your GP or use our medical advice now section.
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One little troubled teen has been self-harming for two years and was recently diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She is seeing a counsellor regularly
mindmap wants the life he had back and is looking for some answers
AnnC1 has suffered from depression for many years and felt she was an outsider as a child
BaronessTom is a student with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and suffers from episodes of debilitating depression
Farout dreamer is in a constant search for his identity after a traumatic childhood
Norrms has Early Onset Alzheimer's and while he's scared, he's also happy in the knowledge that he's raised a loving family that will stand by his side
Andrew grice considers himself a 'veteran' of bipolar disorder and gives lectures about the condition at universities
Orange Squeeky has bipolar disorder and has lost faith in mental health professionals
milkybar has had episodes of clinical depression throughout her life and mental illness runs in her family
Fairy_Wings has battled with depression since she started self-harming in her teens. She is now 27
eleni valentine has bipolar disorder and bulimia and is coming to the realisation that her mental health condition is a 'life long problem' that she can't ignore
Kurse30 has been diagnosed with schizophrenia after experiencing changes in his mood and regrets experimenting with drugs in the past
jamieevans has had depression and anxiety since she was a teenager and lives with her anxiety-prone mother
OnceMoreFromTheTop aka Phoebe is learning to cope with the OCD she once saw as a curse
Barmycarmy aka Carmel is on a waiting list for CBT, but is unmedicated and not coping well
Lilruthc has had symptoms of depression for 5 years and now gets anxious and stressed easily
Meg1 wants to track her progress as she comes to understand what having borderline personality disorder means for her
Will-R became depressed 5 years ago after his mum died and has recently started having anxiety attacks
JustEliza says she's 'spent most of my life trying to solve the puzzle that is me'
ToadofToadHall is a mental health nurse who was in denial about 'the big D'
Piggles aka Emma still struggles to come to terms with being diagnosed with depression. She's eager to chat
Scarlett1984 describes herself as a 'smiling depressive'
sea1 wants help and advice on how to stop her depression disrupting her life
dontcare finds CBT helps her depression, but she still has many low days
Optimist at Heart thought she'd conquered the 'demon' of depression, but now finds it has crept back
Everybody lies feels like she can't allow herself to be happy
GaryP is 16, suffers from depression and recently got over agoraphobia
Storm&Stress is worried she may relapse after an up and down Christmas and New Year
DarkClouds has recently been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder
Soulmamma is a compulsive list maker and sets herself 3 'happy tasks' per day
Davidsmurthwaite writes about technology and mental health
Booa26 has been suffering on and off with depression, anxiety and eating disorders since she was 14
BigJen is a former practice nurse who has depression, MS and diabetes and 'the best hubby in the world'
DanielS is a web editor and music & film lover who has had clinical depression since his teens
Laurey is 22 and was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder at Christmas 2008
More information:
Nothing in this blog should be taken as medical advice and the opinions are personal and not those of the NHS. If you have any concerns about your health you should contact your GP or use our medical advice now section.
Is dark chocolate really healthy for you? It's been advertised as being good for us, but it can be hard to tell what's real and what's not. If you're not sure whether the benefits you've heard about are really available from chocolate, here are some of the basics to help you decide.
Dark chocolate's primary benefit comes from flavonoids, a type of substance that falls under the umbrella of antioxidants. Many of the diseases we suffer from can be caused or aggravated by oxidant damage to our cells. Antioxidants can help reduce these problems, including some of the effects of aging, by preventing the completion of the oxidant reaction.
They capture damaging free radicals, and can be very beneficial to us. Some foods have more antioxidants than others. For instance, while they're present in strawberries, you'll find almost eight times as much of these chemicals in dark chocolate. Chocolate also has the ability to reduce blood pressure, since it contains nitric oxide, and may help with internal hormonal balances.
It's also been said that a small bar of chocolate daily can be good for your heart. That's because of the aforementioned blood pressure benefits, and also the fact that it can help reduce LDL (bad) cholesterol as much as ten percent. Chocolate also stimulates the production of endorphins and serotonin, contains caffeine, theobromine and other stimulants, and tastes good. That means it has a lot of appeal.
The downsides are that it takes a lot of chocolate to have a big effect, and chocolate is a fairly fatty food. A third of the fats in chocolate are monounsaturated, and two thirds are saturated and able to affect your cholesterol. Another problem is that this high fat content, combined with the sugar in chocolate, means weight gain is a possibility if you eat too much.
Studies have used about three and a half ounces of dark chocolate each day to determine its benefits. That translates into about four hundred calories. While that might not sound like much, consider that it's the same as eating two small doughnuts, and that an extra four hundred calories per day could result in a gain of almost a pound a week.
That means that if you're eating a lot of chocolate to get its benefits, you'll need to increase your activity level and adjust your diet accordingly to avoid weight gain. To keep from eating too much, take the time to taste and appreciate chocolate every time your consume it. These health benefits are also available only from dark chocolate with sixty-five percent or higher levels of cocoa.
Milk chocolate has much lower cocoa content and can't offer those health benefits, and white chocolate contains no cocoa at all. Chocolate bars made of pure chocolate or chocolate with minimal flavorings are the best choice. Avoid nougat, caramel, and similar fillings, which can reduce the benefits chocolate is offering.
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So this is my first blog.
Well where to start?
Maybe a bit of info about me.
I'm 15 years old and I've been a self harmer for the last 2 years. I have also been recently diagnosed with Bipolarity, finally I know what I am. A manic depressive.
Heres my story so far..
It started after a very rough patch with my parents which began when I was 7... and finally I snapped at News year eve 2007/08.
The new year started out with my beloved parents making me stand a couple of metres away from them after once again having a fight all about nothing. Bloody typical.
I was stranded in a strange place all alone hating my life and hating my parents. Of course the problems with my parents weren't the only trigger, life at school was becoming unbearable. I knew something had to happen to change my life, I couldn't go on living like this.
So when I got back to school I found out about self harming from a friend and well the idea sounded like it might work. So I started it, I can still remember the first cut now. Straight into the bone on my right wrist. Yes it hurt like hell but I found out I loved it. Sadly then the addiction started.
My cutting was in secret then and gradually got worse and worse, eventually just getting out of control. Then just to make things even better, the voice in my head then started talking to me which then brings me to that one day, the day I call my breakdown day, the day that I completely lost it. Imagine it, a young girl sitting on the floor in school, screaming and shouting scared out of my life. Teachers running, friends crying, no one had a clue what was wrong. I had to tell them. Then everyone found out. That was March 2008. Of course after that day everyone was more careful around me, however the cutting did not reduce or my emotions get any better. My teachers and parents decided that something should be done to help me.
So I then started counselling.
I've had counselling for the last two years to try and get over all my emotional problems. I had it from March 2008 to June 2009, and stopped just after my 14th birthday as then both myself and my counsellor felt I was okay, well okay enough to stand on my own two feet.
Thosetwo years were constant ups and downs, more cutting and less cutting, more fights and less fights. Things were sometimes great, but sometimes awful. Sadly though, the problem I went to counselling for in the first place never subsided. I was infact constantly cutting.
On the up side, this last year I luckily had an amazing year, one of the best years I've ever had. Great friends, alright family and the best boyfriend in the world.
Sadly I ruined all that. My friends all became extremely close to my boyfriend at the time (lets call him E.G) and well to be blunt I cheated on him, not only once of twice but three times. I know what your thinking, what a total slag! And I know.. I was. Who knows what the hell I was thinking.. I still don't even know now. After the first time he found I cheated, everything was relatively okay. After the second time he found out i'd cheated on him again, I not only lost him as my boyfriend, I also lost my "best friend" (lets call her A.B) and tried to commit suicide in the toilets, which as you can tell happily failed. After the third time I lost the last few close friends I had, as it involved my bestest friend of them all (lets call her M.G) and well to put it bluntly, completely lost my mind.
Imagine losing two of the most important people in your life, then realising your mistakes changing yourself but then something that you did when you were a bad person comes back and ruins everything that you'd somehow managed to save from the other incident.
It was one of the worst times in my life and I'm still trying to get over that. It was only a month ago when the third incident happened and I still cry about it.
Seeing all of them together, all still loving friends and having one thing in common, a huge raging hatred for me.
So some recent news.
This last month I've started the last year at school, year eleven, with hardly any close friends and an awful reputation. Ive started counselling again after the attempted suicide and my cutting. But this time its not just about my cutting and my moods but how I treat myself and others around me, mainly my supposed friends. I'm doing it because I'm scared of hurting the people I love again, they really didn't and don't deserve that. I am a bad person and I must change.
These next few months are going to be so hard, and I've been through so much already. I just have to keep strong, but then most people on here would probably understand how easy that is to say but just how hard it is to actually do.
I'm struggling at the moment and I feel more alone than ever. No one understands and it hurts. I feel numb. Numb inside and out. Cutting sets me free.
I have two sides to me. One side that wants to cut and another side that desperately wants to stop. Actually I have two sides to everything. I'm guessing that's just my manic depression. It kills me. I'm constantly fighting with myself and my emotions. I just don't know what to do anymore. I miss my old counsellor, I miss the old days where everything was better and easier.
I regret. I hurt. I miss so much. But I've learnt.
The last 2 - 3 weeks I've been constantly depressed but then this last weekend I had an episode of mania, not complete but only hypo-mania. Sadly today I was going up and down very quickly and well at the moment I'm just numb, not feeling anything. I can feel myself going down and I know that tonight is going to be awful.
Sorry that my first post is so long, I just wanted to get my story completely told.
Well I guess that is all for now.
Love you all.
Peace to you all.
Keep on smiling. Even if its just a fake one like mine. <3
”Why is it that when we are young, late September is an old way of Christmas? Do we think how we are older that Christmas is just around the corner at this time of year? Maybe I think too much?LOL but my consultant told me, "Use it or lose it" as diagnosed he first things go me before two Jahren.Solche me through my mind much more in these days and I find myself back to boyhood days thinking.
Seemed at that time much easier, harder? Yes! But simply
If there is one thing to say about this terrible disease is usually some of your best and oldest memories are usually the last to imagine gehen.Wie, solves this such a mess of feelings as I like to think that I many many happy memories of mein life early and lately (what I can think of) the sheer my favorite thought forget woman and my family met me with such dread a few days I actually afraid to shake.I had always this fear before my diagnosis, the I one day; wake up alone all of me and my whole life has been just a dream.
Then this goes only in said two years ago that it actually happen a strong possibility! Most of my memories corrode through this disease of the brain until I see all memories are unforgiving my childhood, when I'm happy. All this is driving me to as much as I can while I can for as long as I as can I refuse completely flat lie down to do this disease or roles,.
Yesterday Elaine and me out Memory Cafe we visited volunteer, and I was asked a few words about my illness (me? a Word?)Are you kidding me? LOL LOL) so try to raise awareness, I said that the word "Cancer" was only whispered or the big "C" then of course as we had, HIV or "Aids", which seemed to be only talked, in corners or even nicht.Jetzt the two issues are spoken, open and honest. WHY???Because we put it to the top of people's attention! We announced the fact that there is only one disease and not some fear! we to stand and more had to be done to terrible diseases as approved.
For this reason, people listened to, belongs to Government, and the generosity of people came to the top!You stood side by side be counted and made their donations are required and to finance research and hopefully someday a cure welcome.The result is what we today donated haben.Millionen of books used by the Government for the research and the words, cancer or HIV as often as any other Word.
So what's the word dementia?Why, in this day and age it's still only whispered about? why plowing Governments more money in a disease than another if they are all equally devastating? the answer is quite simple if you think about it! if not for the wonderful people, about the diseases mentioned campaign and take the message look us had to be more awareness would then raised the general public still talking about cancer and HIV in whisper!
The same applies for the word DEMETIA?Of course it does!And by raising awareness of as much as possible about DEMENTIA and all its problems you can enjoy dementia will be suffering, now and for the Zukunft.So come on guys, it worked for other diseases and I hope and pray that it works for this disease in my life and a cure is found.
HELP AWARENESS-RAISING.
As always, best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxx
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